Baavra Mann - Hazaaron Khwaishen Aisi

I absolutely adore this song. Here is my attempt at singing this fantastic composition. Please let me know what you think! 

Baavra Mann_Hazaar...

Today

He slowly woke up from what seemed an eternity. It was dark and he could not really figure out where he was or what the time was. He had just a scintilla of actuality. His laptop had moved to standby and the blinking light was the only thing he could really make out. He heard the world sighing and snoring outside or that is what it seemed. He woke up and took a few unsteady steps towards the window. It was raining and cars went by, all at approximately the same speed, one after the other. He just stood there and watched. He was not thinking. Just existing and watching cars go by as it rained. Slowly, reality started taking control. He felt like a PC on Vista. All the processes were starting slowly, one after the other and bringing him back to a reality he was a part of not by accident but by choice. Time to take take responsibility for your actions, he thought. It was time to start working on his homework. 

My first paper - online !

Everyone can now view my first IEEE conference paper online ! Just type in my name on Google Scholar ! 

Fuzzy Logic based supervision of DC Link PI control in a DSTATCOM.

Woohoo! Its a good feeling. 

You can still ruin my day.

Jon Brion is easily one of my favorite composers. I was introduced to him through the music of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind which is incidentally on my top 5 movies ever ever. Here is one more gem of a song composed by Jon Brion. I'd like to put it here because I love this so much and there seems to be so much truth in the song. I would not know. 

You can still ruin my day. 

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I know it's today, so I guess you could say one recovers

It's odd you should call me, but then after all we were lovers

I don't wait by the phone like I used to

I don't hope for kind words you might say

You don't prey on my mind like you used to

But you can still ruin my day

You can still ruin my day

You're telling me now you regret how we never connected

Oh, as if you forget that it's me you regret you rejected

I don't easily forgive like I used to

And I seldom get carried away

No, you don't have the pull that you used to

But you can still ruin my day

Oh, you can still ruin my day

Love, it was nothing, it hardly hurt a bit,

Sounds good to me, but unfortunately I remember it

Now, I don't lose my place like I used to

I'm not moved by your artful display

No, you can't draw me in like you used to

But you can still ruin my day

You can still ruin my day

You can still ruin my day

You can still ruin my day

I said you can still ruin my day.

Notes to self

Life is too beautiful and wondrous to be wasted on petty quarrels and squabbles. So much to learn and so much to discover ! The only major constraint and motivator is Time. Music is salvation. In losing oneself in the infinite abyss of one's own mind lies the solution. Beauty, perfection, love. I keep getting back to these concepts I cannot yet comprehend. They are inter-related and life's purpose is finding meaning. Simplicity, purity, clarity. I love the fact that I am single. I love it that I have control over atleast a major portion of my free time. I love the fact that I can think and act and behave independently. I love my courses. I am blessed that I can think and do not have to constantly worry about surviving. I am grateful. I am grateful that I have the choice to lead a simple uncomplicated life. A life of math and electromagnetic fields, music and writing and thinking. Simple. Clear. I am grateful with all my heart.