Not for me

The middle is not for me
I am either the best or the worst
The middle is not for me
The average is a dull number
I increase the standard deviation
The middle is not for me

What has stability given anyone
except a crushing sense of helplessness
and a sudden anxiety
The middle is not for me
I jump from one end to the other
I am either the violet or the red
The middle is not for me

I cannot calm my mind
I cannot sit at a place and do my job
I cannot count chickens
And be happy that I did
what i was told to do
The middle is not for me
I am either Mercury or Neptune
The middle is not for me