Saturday, February 25, 2006

Thinking and hoping ...

A small traditional house with a courtyard ,on the shores of the mighty Bay Of Bengal .He sits on the porch and smells the see breeze .As the air fills his lungs , afeeling of contentment spreads through his body .Small lights glow in the distance .Ships ,sailing off to far away lands , visiting far away places . How beautiful they looked , as they flickered in the distance , complementing the stars in the sky . The moon shone brilliantly ,dazzling any soul who laid his eyes on her . He felt a delicate touch on his shoulder and as he turned and looked at her he knew , at that moment , what paradise was . In the silence they shared , in her beautiful captivating eyes , that hint of a smile on her face ,her dark long hair ,he lost himself as tears of joy flowed down his cheek and in that moment , he experienced true bliss .

1+2+3+3+2+1

After almost two weeks of hectic quizzes , I am back !! This occured in class . After my B slot( Digital Signal Processing ) Quiz , we were sitting sitting in class and the all charismatic Ramlingam Sir started to discuss the solutions .

First question(by ramli) : How did you do your exams ?

Class : *Gen chatter* People are happy exam was easy


I thought I had done pretty well in my exam and as usual , was sitting in the first bench . As sir solved some problem on board , I was nodding my head as I 'thought' i had done that sum right . Then suddenly , I find Ramli Sir looking at me . He had probably seen me nodding my head .there was a tinge of amusement and sarcasm on his face as he started to nod his head the other way !!
I was totally confused now .. I had done that problem perfeclty right . I had put down the same steps . What is going on ? Ramli sir clearly notices the confusion in my face .

The last step to the solution was 1+2+3+3+2+1 = 12 .

He calmly turns around , writes a 9 and points his finger at me mockingly . ' Why did you not not use your calculator ? ' as the whole class bursts into laughter !

I have not been more embarassed than this ever ! Man , does life rock !!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

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    Monday, January 30, 2006

    I rule !!!

    I won the Creative Writing - Day 4 ( Titbits ) event at Saarang 2006 . Am I good or what !
    Numero Uno baby !! Yay !!

    Coming up soon : My Creative Writing - Day 3 ( Poetry ) entry at Saarang 2006 .

    Wednesday, January 25, 2006

    My Creative Writing entry

    Saarang is here and there are lots of girls and lots of noise and lots of wannabes and i just sometimes laugh at them ... hrrrmph . I am pretty irritated with it this time .. i do not know for what reason . Damn it .. Anyway , one of the main motivations for me to take part in the Creative Writing competition this time was the fact that i could post it all in my blog . Sounded like a good idea at that time ... *sigh* .


    The Question : ACP Rathod is woken up at the middle of the night and informed about a dead body found in a deserted street . It is that of a woman and the only thing found along with her is a handbag with a note which says ' Do not exceed your welcome ' . Her left ring finger has been cut-off . Improvise .


    My Answer :


    The first time i saw him , I remember being filled with a strange kind of dread . You experience some feelings rarely and it is often these feelings that you do not forget . As I slump down to the floor in ACP Rathod's office ,I recall the events that lead to his tragic fate. It rains and thunders outside as his motionless silhouette sits by the window .

    I was assigned to ACP Rathod about a month ago. He was one of the most brilliant officers ever to be on the force . He had single handedly cracked many ' unsolvables ' . I must say for myself that I was not bad either and the more I got to know him , the more i respected him . But ACP Rathod was a troubled man . He never drank and never smoked . He told me one day , ' I will never smoke because a rational man would not knowingly destroy his precious irreplaceable organs . I will never drink because I am trying damn hard to control my mind. I would not dare to let it loose. I fear its power . '

    It was a night , three days ago , when he walked into the bar I frequent . I was surprised at that time but welcomed his company . He had a problem he said , as he drank his brandy .
    I discovered that day , what a troubled man ACP Rathod was . His wife left him a year ago and had taken the only thing in his life which was more precious to him than his work , his daughter . He was 35 years old , single and confused but always extremely meticulous with his work . He never smiled and always looked stressed out . But he did not tell me what his problem was that day and I let it go at that . Some people just need somebody to talk to sometimes .


    I was woken up at midnight by a call from my boss. He had recieved news of the dead body of a woman lying in a deserted part of the street .

    12:20 AM : I reach the office and find that the light in Mr.Rathod's room is on . I grab a cup of coffee from the coffee machine to get my mind working and climb the stairs to his room . I see him twirling a pen in his hand in a characteristic fashion and trying to work out something on his pad.

    12:30 AM : We reach the crime scene to find the body of a well dressed woman , about the age of 25. She had been strangled to death and her left ring finger had been cut-off . The police were already there on the scene before us , and had found a piece of paper in her handbag which said ' do not exceed your welcome ' .

    01:00 AM : After convincing myself that there were no other clues around , I look around for Mr. Rathod. He was sitting on the other corner of the street and it looked like he had found something. It was a handkerchief and had a name ' Woody ' stitched on it and there were marks of blood . He had found the severed finger wrapped in it.
    I remembered to have seen that name somewhere , but i was unable to place it . But what was more intriguing was the look on his face . He looked like he was about to cry , anguish and pain and uncertainty . Then , as he saw me next to him , his expression immediately changed to his usual frown .

    01:20 AM : We leave the scene and bid each other goodbye . I go back to my room and feel very uncomfortable . I had seen the name Woody written somewhere. As i am unable to sleep , i get up to wash my face . As the cold water splattered on my face , I just remembered where i had seen it ! Mr. Rathod had written a poem and had shown it me

    In heavens arms shall I sleep
    For peace this world does not bring
    To you , I need to come
    Lord , execute me once

    and it had been signed Woody !!!!


    02:40 AM : I run like a madman to his office . I do not know what has taken me over . It was a feeling of something bad about to happen , something terrible . My gut feeling was never wrong and i ran . I ran to him . I ran because i did not know what else to do . And just as I was about to enter the building , I heard a loud BANG ! A gunshot ! The sound made me freeze on the spot.

    0300 AM : I slowly climb the stairs and enter his room , my gun drawn to find him dead on his desk , gun in hand . He had blown his brains out . I was flabbergasted and did not know what to do . I found his scribbling pad in which the following had been scribbled .


    DO NOT EXCEED YOUR WELCOME

    LORD EXECUTE ME ONCE , WOODY


    It was an anagram !!!!

    The next day morning , I find out that the woman who had been killed was his wife . His kid had been killed in a car accident while playing outside her house and her mother was on the phone four days ago. That night at the bar , he had taken a few drinks and in a fit of insanity ,driven over to her place and killed her . He had been so taken over by rage that only after seeing her dead body ,three days later did he realise what he had done . She had taken away from him the only thing that mattered . As Red says in the Shawshank Redemption , " Every man has his breaking point " , and this was his .


    PS : Junta , sorry if this leaves you a bit pained :) But this was written in 3 hours time , the first one hour of which went into figuring out the anagram .

    Monday, January 23, 2006

    Heil Karmalkar !!!

    If there was one thing I was not satisfied with in IIT , it was the teaching. Many of the 'profs' seemed to look upon teaching as a burden . Then entered the charming , handsome stud Device Modelling prof Dr Shreepad Karmalkar . Its a pleasure listening to him and he is the perfect ' model ' of what a prof should be . Some of his gems ...

    ' Life is just a set of iterations. You try something out , check if it works , and then iterate to get something better'

    'Modelling is like a game of chess . Just knowing how each piece moves does not ensure that you can win the game. You slowly develop expertise and improve your game. '

    'What is understanding ? Understanding is knowing what is important and what you can ignore to simplify your problem. '

    Sunday, January 15, 2006

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    Sometimes , it feels like prison to me . Only there are no walls , no bars , no offence . You are free , they say . You are free to do what you please .... But are you ? I think man likes to be bound . The second they say you are free , he starts tying himself up with his own ropes . He starts limiting his possibilities ,he starts becoming un-free . Life throws many things at us .. But the cruellest thing is time . No matter how happy and how well fit , there is always this doubt ... ' could it have been done better ? Why did I Not do that ? Oh God wish I could go back . ' Any intelligent person would definitely have thought that , some time or the other . So I beg myself to live now .... to DO now ... because later I should not regret not having done it well , or not having done it at all ...

    Tuesday, January 10, 2006

    Inescapabilities

    I fall again into my mind
    As i spiral down , down into its depths
    Purity i seek and that i do not get
    Bored as I am to climb the steps

    Indiscreet enquiry fails to make sense
    As i move closer to self-destruction
    Unbearably numb , numb as i am dumb
    I throw the key into my own abyss

    No people , no comfort ,no crying
    As I just want to sleep
    A sweet lullaby is sung to me
    when I am done , I shall sleep.

    Monday, January 02, 2006

    Nice Beginning

    Nothing like Home ... No place ever . After a six day sojourn at my 'favouritest' place in the whole universe , my home in Hyderabad , I am back in IIT , refreshed and ready to take on the new semester . My mum, like always , pampered me as much as she could . A cool fireworks display at midnight , thanks to some rich dude who lives near my place , the beautiful view of the lighted overbridge which still makes me want to stare at it and admire it , a child's innocent thankful smile in the train which made my heart beat faster and jump and soar with joy , boy i had a great time .
    While leaving Hyderabad , the moon played its part by smiling ever so gently ... just a hint of a smile , a thin line in the sky ... WOW what a sight it was and what a great beginning !!!!

    Friday, December 23, 2005

    Sad Movies (as in sad the opposite of happy)

    I like movies which end on a sad note . They somehow seem to be more realistic and convincing . Agreed that people come to watch a movie to have a nice time . Its a break that they want from their mundane and not so fair ,reality . It takes them away from their own lives and into one of joy and happiness . But somehow , sad ends move you in a strange way . Could you please suggest some good ones ?

    Tuesday, December 20, 2005

    Apple i-tunes : I love it !!!

    As the tones of the piano waft through the air , I am transported to a magical world where nothing and everything co-exist in perfect harmony . I close my eyes and am happy to have the privilege of listening to a beautiful concert right here in my room , lying on my bed . Its raining outside ... well since my present self resides in Chennai , it would be new if I said that it wasn't raining . But that apart, I was able to experience this classical pleasure thanks to Internet Radio on the Apple i-tunes player.I am majorly impressed by what they have offered to date and the good thing is
    that it is legitimate and freeeee . Check it out !

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  • Monday, December 19, 2005

    Saturday, December 17, 2005

    An Analogy



    Sometimes , I think life is like a double exponential distribution . It becoms steeper and steeper as you try to reach the top and there is
    place there only for the best . Also , in case you slip after reaching the top , the fall could take you to the bottom . so the only way to get to the top and stay there is to keep working and never give up in the face of obstacles. For all you now , facing an obstacle may actually be a boon in disguise , since surmounting it would give you enormous self confidence .

    Thursday, December 15, 2005

    Tuesday, December 13, 2005

    Snake

    One of the classic games I love and play to this day - Snake as it is known now or Nibbles as it was known earlier . I remember playing that game on my cousin cister's 486 . Wow sweet memories ... that was like the stone age . And look at how games have evolved over the ages. Now we could actually build our own world on a computer . But thinking about it , I sometimes wonder whether people have taken it a bit too far . I will elaborate on my next post . Till then, enjoy my favourite version of Snake available on the web.

    Snake on Neave :SNAKE

    Friday, December 09, 2005

    Pulp Fiction Addict

    I cant help it ... The movie is just so damn good ... i am unable to take it off my mind . I see certain scenes still twice or thrice a day . I am going mad . Quentin Help me !

    What Pulp Fiction Character Are You?

    Tired of being underappreciated and manipulated by powerful "others," you fight back. Though possesssing a cold, violent outside, you have a soft, sentimental inside. You love your partner, you cherish family heirlooms, and you want nothing more than to be geniunely happy -- but you don't mind having to kill a couple of nimrods who happen to clutter your path.

    Take the What Pulp Fiction Character Are You? quiz.


    Not totally correct but what the heck .... I even joined a MIA WALLACE fan club .

    Wednesday, December 07, 2005

    The LIB

    Two sofas , set at diametrically opposite positions , olive green in colour and tastefully designed . Bright tubelights hidden from your view throw a soft bright white light all round the place . Then there are small tables with four chairs each , two on one side and two on the other . The cushions on the chair are of the same colour as that of the sofa and the table top is just a shade or two lighter. No my friends ... I am not describing the setting in a posh retaurant . This is how the interior of the Reference Section of The Central Library here looks like.

    I shamefully admit that this semester , I have been to the Library only thrice and that too to renew the books that I had taken in the beginning . I had no idea that they had done so much .

    The best part is that they have everything from Analog Electronics to George Bernard Shaw .
    And then there is this small shop just outside where we could have a cup of coffee or a piece of cake. It is sad indeed that so much is being given to me and I under-utilize it so badly .I am definitely going to spend atleast one hour of every day these holidays in the Library while I am here.

    Tuesday, December 06, 2005

    20 Things About ME ( Cos i was tagged by two very nice ppl)

    20 . I am on a drug. And it is called Philosophy . As much as i try to lead the simple life of a normal human being , something keeps asking those questions and keeps prodding around in my mind .

    19. I have a lot many friends but very very few know much about me . This was my choice and I like to keep it that way . It is like people will know if you ask for Harish but not much if you ask about him .

    18. I love change and change drives me . Any kind of monotony depresses me and i start searching for change. It is because of this very reason that people who try to get to know me think that i contradict myself . I am not contradicting myself . I am changing .

    17. I believe that beauty and music are two very important parts of our lives . If given a choice as in ,if my basic necessities ( which are actually not so basic ) are assured , I'd be an artist or a musician . I play the Keyboard and am trying to hard to improve my music

    16. I am confident that someday GOD and Science will converge and that day will be the LIBERATION of all. I am of the opinion that every single person and every single object , animate or inanimate , are connected in some way .

    15. I love my parents and my sweetest sis . Family is always top priority in my list . I believe that respecting family and making your parents proud and happy , and also assuring them that they have done a good thing by bringing you in to this world is your first and foremost duty .

    14. I will never smoke because a rational man would not knowingly destroy his precious irreplaceable organs . I will never drink because I am trying damn hard to control my mind. I would not dare to let it loose. I fear its power .

    13. I would like to be a lean mean working machine which does its job to perfection , but exactly because of my inability to control my mind , I am now slightly overweight and more or less lazy.I love good food.

    12. I require inspiration to work without which i just perform in a rather mediocre manner(which is exactly what is happening now) . I have put A s in the courses in which the professors are likeable and nice and take interest in interacting with the students.

    11 . I am a meloncholy mood lover . I love to be meloncholy and to gaze at the moon and the stars and the open sky. A true romantic at heart , if i ever find my woman ( i doubt if i will sometimes) , I will take her on a Gondola someday and sing to her .I will take her to the top of a mountain by the sea and share the silence and the sound of the ocean.

    10. I love candlelight and believe that it casts some kind of magic spell . If i ever propose to a woman , it will be in candlelight .

    09. I love to take myself away from reality into some fantasy world . I love movies which help me do that. I love books which do that even more 'cos it puts me in the director's seat.I hate it if i am disturbed while watching a movie or reading a book. I have gone alone to the Theatre many times.

    08. I believe that eyes and feel hold the secret of a person's character. I look into the mirror and into my eyes and talk to myself sometimes to see how i react , how my eyes change .

    07. I am NOT a good conversationalist and am pretty bad at maintaining conversations. The mundane just bores you after sometime . But if you are skillful enough to guide me into something i would like to talk to you about , you would just about be able to bear me .

    06. I come across to most as a sincere , good and nice boy . Some people have complained that i am nice to a point of irritation . I cannot be mean to people even if they are mean to me and believe that most people in this world are good people .

    05. I lack the will power to finish something i start off and this has hurt me more than anything else . I need external prompting or some tempting visible award to keep at something . I could be very unreliable in this respect .

    04. I love playing chess and other games on the computer . Again for the reason that it takes you away from this world . Sometimes I am not too comfortable with who I am but usually return to normalcy soon .

    03. I believe any person could be anything he wants to be if he has the conviction , the brains and proper guidance . I also believe that you should NOT live off your parents as it shows a reluctance to earn your own bread . There is no free lunch in this world . Atleast i think that there shouldnt be .

    02. I believe in morals and living a right life . You will NOT find me cutting queues or bribing or copying in exams. I believe that purity is one of the goals of your life . I sometimes tend to get very lonely and isolate myself from people .

    01. ----------------------------------------- // Interpret in your own way :)


    PS:
    a) If you've read all that I've written above , then I'd immediately tell you that YOU are a very patient person . You musta realised that I am not a fun person to be with , in the conventional sense .
    b) My sis tells me that the kind of girl I want dont even exist anymore , so i did not bother to put that in .
    c) I really dig long and beautiful hair .

    ' Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair ' - Kahlil Gibran

    Saturday, December 03, 2005

    My Hidden Power Test

    HASH(0x8c0242c)
    Your Hidden Power Is Water


    You have a rather calm soul, but when tempted
    will get pissed off at those who bug you. You
    do whatever you can in your powers to help
    those of your allies and have a okay taste for
    human kind, but you find them rather annoying
    on occasions.

    Gem Stone: Saphire, Eye Color:Ice
    Blue,Hair Color:Dark Blue that's long
    that goes to your waist.



    Quote:If you wait for me
    Then I'll come for you. Although I've travelled
    far, I always hold a place for you
    In my heart. If you think of me, If you miss me
    once in a while, Then I'll return to you. I'll
    return and fill that space in your heart.


    What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.

    Well , Its kinda nice . I love the rain and i love the open seas ....

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    What Video Game Character Are You? I am Kung Fu Master.I am Kung Fu Master.


    I like to be in control of myself. I dislike crowds, especially crowds containing people trying to kill me. Even though I always win, I prefer to avoid fights if possible. What Video Game Character Are You?


    Ok Junta ... I just like taking these tests ... Its kinda fun ... but i wont push it too far . :)

    PS : Found the video game thingy on 'The Solitary Reaper's ' blog . Somehow , solitary reaper sounds scary rather than solitary .....